We found out today, that Andy will get to go to Sniper school =) Which is bitter sweet news for me. As I mentioned in previous posts... it is going to be the start of a busy few months ahead of us... well mostly only for Andy. But it is a great school for Andy to go through, and through out his military career it is all he has wanted.
Well Andy and the guys are leaving for the field... Then Andy will be gone for quite some time for Sniper School & JRTC. One after the other. =/ I'm a little anxious as I said before in the year and a half that we have been together, we have not been apart that long. I know I am going to miss him terribly. And it sucks being that I am alone.
The stress kicker is well.. the puppies. We have 5 pups we need to get rid of come October - well I'll be doing that pretty much alone. It's going to be kinda hard without Andy. But it's one of those things we all knew was coming around the bend.
It is now that I can say I definitely do not want to move in December. Which would be most logical for us as our lease is up and he's got leave time for then as well. Just if I were to move in December that would roughly give us 4 weeks to be together before D-Day. And that to me not enough time.
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Dreams
It is an amazing feeling to go to bed knowing you are loved, knowing you are cared for and best of all going to bed with a smile on your face. Although I had an out of this world nightmare, I woke up and looked who I woke up next to, and smiled. I smiled because I knew he was safe and sound next to me and that nothing could be better than that feeling.
Today, I told Andy that I loved him multiple times because of the horrid dream. I wanted him to hear me and to know I meant it. Because the feeling of how devastated I was one of the most intense, real, hurtful feeling in the world. Like the whole world came to a freeze around me and nothing mattered... and I was numb. I know I can't protect him when he deploys, but I can't help but wish to be able to give anything to keep him here where I know he is safe.
I truly believe the feelings your emote in your dream are the most genuine & most pure of feelings. Whether it is anger, fear, sadness, happiness... it is all felt to the most extreme. Consciously, when we express feelings there are many of times in which we tend to hold back. I want to feel love to this fullest extent. From here on out. I will love to the fullest extent. I will love with all I have. I will give love my all!
Today, I told Andy that I loved him multiple times because of the horrid dream. I wanted him to hear me and to know I meant it. Because the feeling of how devastated I was one of the most intense, real, hurtful feeling in the world. Like the whole world came to a freeze around me and nothing mattered... and I was numb. I know I can't protect him when he deploys, but I can't help but wish to be able to give anything to keep him here where I know he is safe.
I truly believe the feelings your emote in your dream are the most genuine & most pure of feelings. Whether it is anger, fear, sadness, happiness... it is all felt to the most extreme. Consciously, when we express feelings there are many of times in which we tend to hold back. I want to feel love to this fullest extent. From here on out. I will love to the fullest extent. I will love with all I have. I will give love my all!
Thursday, September 1, 2011
Bring on the Berrrrrrrrr Months!
Today is the first of the BERRR months (SeptemBER, OctoBER, NovemBER, DecemBER), Andy usually refers to them as the "BRRR" months as they are the colder months for Colorado. This year is a little bit of a different story as the heat has stuck around. I guess that only means we're in for a bitter winter this year! As I am looking forward to the long, much needed weekend that I will be spending with Andy I am beginning to think about how these next couple of months are going to just blow by, and all the changes that are going to take place.
Andy is going to be one busy, busy man these up coming months and I am almost just dreading it. I have been so very lucky that for the last year (and almost half) that I have not had to be away from Andy for so long. At the beginning of our relationship it was just 2 hours apart & seeing each other every weekend until late last year we finally moved in together. And at most, it's only been two weeks here and there for field training. So with that, I have never really been away from Andy for too long & I am so thankful for all of that time!
Schools & more training ahead for Andy. And it comes in a few different options. Option A: Mountain warfare training & Sniper school. I am so excited that he is finally getting sent that way. There were many opportunities for him to go, but the Army is awesome at losing packets or someone else is trying to play God (screwed him over) Option B: No Mtn. Warfare Training, Sniper School & JRTC. Which means he'll be gone for a consecutive amount of time - this is where I begin dreading things a little bit. I have mentioned that I have been so lucky that we have not had to be apart for very long.
The year seems to be wrapping up a little quicker than I want as we start to creep into the colder months & the next thing we know it's 2012. Time flies & I have no idea where it has gone. For those of you that are in military relationships or marriages a certain number of months seem like such a short time. Especially if those months are counting up to what you all know as D-Day (Deployment Day). I am starting to feel that way now. I have quite a number of months before that dreaded day, but I feel like there is so little time to share with Andy before then because of all the schooling & training he'll be attending.
In a sense, almost can't wait for him to go! haha, yeah you read it right. I almost can't wait because I can't wait to miss him, and get that grand feeling of having him back again. And almost, I almost even wish that he would just get going on deployment already... so there are no periods in between where he'll leave, comes back & then has to leave again =/.
But thank goodness for the wonderful family & friends whom I have surrounding me here in Colorado.
Andy is going to be one busy, busy man these up coming months and I am almost just dreading it. I have been so very lucky that for the last year (and almost half) that I have not had to be away from Andy for so long. At the beginning of our relationship it was just 2 hours apart & seeing each other every weekend until late last year we finally moved in together. And at most, it's only been two weeks here and there for field training. So with that, I have never really been away from Andy for too long & I am so thankful for all of that time!
Schools & more training ahead for Andy. And it comes in a few different options. Option A: Mountain warfare training & Sniper school. I am so excited that he is finally getting sent that way. There were many opportunities for him to go, but the Army is awesome at losing packets or someone else is trying to play God (screwed him over) Option B: No Mtn. Warfare Training, Sniper School & JRTC. Which means he'll be gone for a consecutive amount of time - this is where I begin dreading things a little bit. I have mentioned that I have been so lucky that we have not had to be apart for very long.
The year seems to be wrapping up a little quicker than I want as we start to creep into the colder months & the next thing we know it's 2012. Time flies & I have no idea where it has gone. For those of you that are in military relationships or marriages a certain number of months seem like such a short time. Especially if those months are counting up to what you all know as D-Day (Deployment Day). I am starting to feel that way now. I have quite a number of months before that dreaded day, but I feel like there is so little time to share with Andy before then because of all the schooling & training he'll be attending.
In a sense, almost can't wait for him to go! haha, yeah you read it right. I almost can't wait because I can't wait to miss him, and get that grand feeling of having him back again. And almost, I almost even wish that he would just get going on deployment already... so there are no periods in between where he'll leave, comes back & then has to leave again =/.
But thank goodness for the wonderful family & friends whom I have surrounding me here in Colorado.
Two Dogs and ... A Half?
KINO
This is our Kino Kitty... Handsome isn't he? That's pretty much all he has going on him. He's a terrible dog, but is a great KITTY! Thus his name... he acts more like a cat most times than a dog! This is one of the few snap shots of him that does not show his lack of intelligence. He is every one's friend & loves making new friends. Always playful and if only LICKS could kill!!!
EVA
She's Andy's little girl, his baby, his little coyote!!! She just had another litter of five pups and has been the most amazing momma to them. She's the smarter one of our bunch. And with me... she's my little guardian. Every where we go she's the beauty to everyone's eyes. And sometimes a worry to some. We truly believe that she's got coyote in her. She's special!
HUSKY
Yeah a Husky who we call Kitty & and Kitty who we call Husky. It's a little dysfunctional, but it works for us! This little shark loves to lurk under the bed until someone tries to climb into bed and that's when she strikes! I initially wanted a pretty little fish, but Andy ended up giving me her because a fish was not a real pet!
About Me
I'm a native of Colorado and was born & raised in Fort Collins, Colorado. I attended the University of Northern Colorado and graduated with a degree in Nursing & minor in Psychology. During my years at college, I joined an organization - Pi Lambda Chi Latina Sorority, Inc. Yes, a LATINA sorority. It is through this organization I have met some extraordinary women, who to this day still stand by my side as my sisters.
At the beginning of 2010 my goal was to be only myself, no distractions from men & troubles of relationships. But after a trip to Texas for Spring Break, I met Andy. He and I began a casual dating "thing" after sometime and even meeting his family & friends as the "friend" our relationship evolved into something so much more! Here we are almost two years later ... living together! A year and a half ago I would have thought not much more than how much this guy can make me laugh. We are going through the ups and downs of our relationship, but every day it gets so much better!
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