It is an amazing feeling to go to bed knowing you are loved, knowing you are cared for and best of all going to bed with a smile on your face. Although I had an out of this world nightmare, I woke up and looked who I woke up next to, and smiled. I smiled because I knew he was safe and sound next to me and that nothing could be better than that feeling.
Today, I told Andy that I loved him multiple times because of the horrid dream. I wanted him to hear me and to know I meant it. Because the feeling of how devastated I was one of the most intense, real, hurtful feeling in the world. Like the whole world came to a freeze around me and nothing mattered... and I was numb. I know I can't protect him when he deploys, but I can't help but wish to be able to give anything to keep him here where I know he is safe.
I truly believe the feelings your emote in your dream are the most genuine & most pure of feelings. Whether it is anger, fear, sadness, happiness... it is all felt to the most extreme. Consciously, when we express feelings there are many of times in which we tend to hold back. I want to feel love to this fullest extent. From here on out. I will love to the fullest extent. I will love with all I have. I will give love my all!
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